The Heart is a Lonely Hunter: Five Realizations About Loneliness

This is not at all what I intended to write when I sat down. I had the idea to write something lighthearted about how I fill my time with cooking, music, reading, and writing, and that I’m completely happy living alone and without TV or internet. Instead, you get heavy revelations about loneliness and attachment. I’m going to try to relate a few realizations I had about my preoccupation with (especially male) attention in the most open and honest way I can, but this shit is hard to talk about.… Read More The Heart is a Lonely Hunter: Five Realizations About Loneliness

Coming Out of Hibernation Early

My retreat from this blog lasted 20 days. I decided to come out of hiding for two reasons. Firstly, my depression this winter seems to be pretty mild, and secondly, I greatly missed writing from the personal, vulnerable space I’ve created for myself on this blog. … Read More Coming Out of Hibernation Early

Putting My Cynical Self in Hibernation

I suffer from seasonal affective disorder, and the variety of depression that seems to be settling down on me this year is characterized by rage, hopelessness, frustration, and cynicism. I really don’t want to write from this place, at least not publicly, so I’m putting this blog on hiatus until these aggressive feelings begin to subside. I wish you all a safe, happy, and productive new year. … Read More Putting My Cynical Self in Hibernation

The Nine of Swords: Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

Divination is a way to peer inside the subconscious and uncover thoughts, ideas, desires, and needs there that have been buried for one reason or another. On the Winter Solstice last year, I laid out a five card spread to mark the death of a year and forecast my forthcoming solar year. In this post, I explore in retrospect how the Nine of Swords related to my attitude toward change in 2017. … Read More The Nine of Swords: Breaking Up Is Hard To Do